What the Living Do
by Marie Howe
Johnny, the kitchen sink has been clogged for days, some
utensil probably fell down there.
And the Drano won't work but smells dangerous, and the
crusty dishes have piled up
waiting for the plumber I still haven't called. This is the
everyday we spoke of.
It's winter again: the sky's a deep, headstrong blue, and
the sunlight pours through
the open living-room windows because the heat's on too high
in here and I can't turn it off.
For weeks now, driving, or dropping a bag of groceries in
the street, the bag breaking,
I've been thinking: This is what the living do. And
yesterday, hurrying along those
wobbly bricks in the Cambridge sidewalk, spilling my coffee
down my wrist and sleeve,
I thought it again, and again later, when buying a
hairbrush: This is it.
Parking. Slamming the car door shut in the cold. What you
called that yearning.
What you finally gave up. We want the spring to come and the
winter to pass. We want
whoever to call or not call, a letter, a kiss—we want more
and more and then more of it.
But there are moments, walking, when I catch a glimpse of
myself in the window glass,
say, the window of the corner video store, and I'm gripped
by a cherishing so deep
for my own blowing hair, chapped face, and unbuttoned coat
that I'm speechless:
I am living. I remember you.
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